For the first time in my life, I’m actually happy. I’m not talking about this particular moment or even this particular day. But I’m finally at peace with my beliefs and worldview. For the first time, it all makes sense and does not feel eerily imposed. Most important, I’m free of guilt! You know how certain worldviews perpetuate a hammering voice in the back of your head that continuously nags "you’re not doing enough, you're not doing enough, you're not doing enough"....you get the point. Well, I simply clicked the ‘mute’ button. Any worldview that promises harmony and eternal happiness shouldn’t make you miserable by reminding you of the very essence of your being – the fact that you’re a mortal, limited, sin-prone human being.
Some might ask “well, why not simply put a little more effort into it?”. Who said I didn’t? But even then, I didn’t feel any better than I would banging my head against a wall and feeling a little faint afterwards. Some would describe that feeling as transcending and mystical. I would describe it as “Ouch!”. Thank you very much, but I would take level-headedness at any time any day.
Now I can finally focus on putting my effort on what really matters like getting that dream job, and spending more time with the people I care about.
That being said, who’s up for a trip to the beach?
